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It seems my love language turned into sending random memes through my mutuals' ask as I don't know how to keep a long conversation 😔🤲
#I'm so sorry to bother you all#I hope you understand my lack of communication#but I love you#i don't mind if you bother me back#just let's keep the mutual#pls don't hate me
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tagged by @buckleydiaz (hi dee!!!!!!)
game: add 10 gifs from your favourite shows and tag 10 people
1. barry
2. bob's burgers
3. fleabag
4. the haunting of hill house
5. heartbreak high
6. schitt's creek
7. ted lasso
8. this is us
9. yellowjackets
10. 9-1-1
tagging: @quinnigallagherjones @keikomiura @luins @aaronstveit @sitpwgs
@uaeb @lesbiansforandrew @kinglegolas @pussiesaregod @cresents
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hey there! sorry to bother again, but I was in a animating mood, so I ended doing a short animation of Machete for practice. It's kinda messy since I havent done that for a while, but hope you like it!
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#HOLY MOLY#it's genuinely unfathomable that people are willing to put this much effort into my characters ;_; you're wonderful I don't deserve it#he's so expressive in your style#an exasperated eye roll#what has gotten him all peeved this time#I don't know animation terminology but I love the squash and stretch (?) on his face#especially his eyebrows#and the (I don't know what to call them) eye bags? facial wrinkles? they're really selling the “for the love of god not this again” look#the final frame is just golden#perfect squinty frown mwah#also appreciating his silly little opossum teeth#it's beautiful I've looked at this for five hours now#thank you so much!#gift art#pouletpourrisoldblog#own characters#Machete#“sorry to bother you again” bother me??#if you take the time to create something like this I'm putting you in my will
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tw mickey in a dress🙈🙈
sorry they're kinda blurry but you get the point okay the dress was very sex and i looked very prettyy:33333
#dress so tight you can see the outline of my uh#cat#?#anyway#THIS DRESS IS SSOOOOOSO PRETTYY#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#pls i need toji n kuna to be my guard dogs bc i REFUSE to go out in this on my own😐#i am scared .#ANYWAYYY#i really like dressing up at home every so often hehehee i think it's so fun!!!#AND LOOK AT THE HAIR#DIDN'T IT LOOK LIKE HOW THEY WORE IT IN THE 70'S OR SMTH#BLOWOUTS OR WHATEVER THEY'RE CALLED I'M SORRY I DON'T KNOW HAIR AT ALL BUT YEAH#IDK I LIKED IT OKAY#MEOW#mickey's magazine#the pipe bothers me so much don't look at it pls..
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this description made me realise what one of my favourite MXTX character tropes is: Over-Worked, Under-Appreciated Employee Who Is Not Above Becoming Somewhat Evil About It
#jin guangyao#shang qinghua#sha hualing#ling wen#svsss#tgcf#mdzs#jgy#sqh#shl#i can't get over the descriptions of shl ''the demon race’s star employee Sha Hualing''#''her current role as an overworked and underpaid employee seems something of a downgrade''#honestly the other three would probably get along relatively well if they could just shove sha hualing into a cupboard somewhere#let them do paperwork and drink tea together in a calm room where no one is bothering them u.u#they're all in fantasy public service and should be allowed to commit a few atrocities. as a treat.#i'm so happy to have finally found an excuse to draw sha hualing i love her design#every other character is wearing upwards of 7 fucking layers - she saw a sexy sexy niche and decided to fill it... or sqh did i guess#i debated putting yin yu in here as well but you know what. even if he works for a ghost king he just really isn't that evil#sorry yin yu once again you just don't quite make the cut#(also he wrecked my composition)#my art
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I've got my eye on you. I'm still here.
#critical role#criticalroleedit#imodna#laura bailey#marisha ray#imogen temult#laudna#laudna cr#gifs#*#*cr#cr3#cr spoilers#ship: imodna#marisha & laura#nova shh#*meta#1k#scheduled#4h7m c3e47#4h13m c3e47#i'm normal i'm so normal#'i'm still here' AAAAAAGH.#in three words imogen said 'i know you're terrified of dying again and being alone again#even though you put on a brave face and pretend that you've moved on and it doesn't bother you#i know it does i /know/ it does and i'm Not going to let it happen again'#and then she DIDN'T HHHHH AND THEN SHE DIDN'T LET IT HAPPEN AGAIN. JUST LIKE SHE PROMISED#also idk if marisha was saying i love you to laura tal or matt but we can say all three <3#sorry ashton isn't in this i truly wanted to include them but then it turned into more of a parallel and it was hard to fit him in idk#anyway i'm normal i'm so normal
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Keeping promises? (Part 2 of this post)
Notes under the cut!
YES I FINALLY FINISHED IT RAHHHHHHH 19 DAYS AFTER MY BIRTHDAYSJNDJDKD Anyway. The whole necklace thing is a reference to Azul's chat from the lessons!
Shading gave me an aneurysm but at least it's done. My favorite part is the chibis tho so I hope everyone enjoys that <3 Even made Azul go :3 as a treat
Edit: @jewelulu I forgot u wanted me to tag u when I post art, so sorry 😔😔 But yeah new art :D
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst fanart#twst oc#twst yuu#twst yume#Wow there's a lot just for a yuu#yuusona#Four...#azul ashengrotto#twst azul#azulchi#taruchi#Uhhh was that all the tags? I think so...#Okay no I have more to yap abt in the tags actually#I CAN NEVER MAKE THEIR HEIGHT DIFFERENCE ACCURATE. HEAD IN HANDS#She's not that short guys...#But yeah never shading again. Not worth it /j#Tho I'm really really happy w the chibis they look so biteable#Azul I fear this is the most biteable you'll ever be#Sorry for the plain bg btw I could Not be bothered anymore 😔#ALSO did I ever mention that mafuyu inspired taru's hairstyle. Yeah KSNDJKFNSF#Wait wait I forgot I did the “I love you— IT” THING WAHAHAHA#I would've continued it but that'd equal to more work and I'm afraid. No. I would've taken longer#I might draw it as a doodle during class tho... Probably#☆ taruchi's drawings 🖌️
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I wish dating Sim games/otome games or whatever were gender neutral or you got the ability to choose your pronouns like in The Arcana :( I know gay guys who play dating sims is a small demographic but please please pleasepleaseplease just let me pick my pronouns so I can immerse myself in the Anime Men Romance Simulator without feeling dysphoric 🥲
#idk man#maybe this is just a me thing#but all of the queer friendly sims are locked behind insane paywalls#is it sad and pathetic? maybe#fr I love shit like Love in Deepspace and Tokyo Debunker but it's always a female MC#maybe it bothers me so much specifically bc I'm trans?#I actually think queer otome type games would be a lucrative untapped market#and it wouldn't have to be strictly gay!!#The Arcana isn’t strictly gay bc you choose your own pronouns#and while not a dating sim BG3 has a romance plot/mechanic and obv that isn't strictly gay either#I'm ranting lol sorry 😞#anyway#like to charge#reblog to cast#tokyo debunker#the arcane game#love in deepspace
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So did anyone else notice how in that scene right near the end where Sevika takes a seat at the new council table and some people quite obviously still disapprove, Sevika is still the only person from Zaun in that room? And you can just tell as she sits down that neither she really thinks she belongs there (hence acts both wary and defensive) and nor really do the rest of the councilmen. I think it's kind of neat cause it shows that Piltover may have just gone through war (which has often been used as an instrument to unite a country under the banner of nationalism in modern history) but it is absolutely not prepared for a complete overhaul of its system. When they give Zaunites a voice at the table, it is just one voice, who may easily be overpowered in the future and who has no experience with the way their politics is handled. Piltover is doomed to repeat its mistakes, because all that this grand war did was distract them from their many, many problems, at least for a while. Until they return to their old ways. Until the mourning period is over and you start gatekeeping top side again. Until enough time has passed for them to get angry and hopeless again, but it doesn't matter, because they are back where they belonged all along.
And maybe that was the point, not to show that society is doomed, but to prove that although everyone managed to come together for a moment, it was only ever going to be a moment. That sometimes complex societal dynamics can't be so easily and satisfactorily solved. But still- the solutions in the short term are flimsy, but they are still there. Sevika is still there. Vi is still there. Sometimes all you need is some dirt under your fingernails you can never really clean out to remind you that no, things aren't okay, but they goddamn well will be.
#I'm really just rambling sorry#But what bothered me about the ending is why would you let a perfectly good societal set up#That gives you endless opportunities for conflict and demands correction#Go to waste in favour of the final enemy being someone whose story is never quite explained within the show itself#And lo and behold all Piltover needed was a war to forget class dynamics and disparity exists#Sorry but. It's lazy and I didn't like it#So now I'm reading into details to tell me no they weren't being lazy and they are in fact perfectly aware#Of how their long-term solution is still not a solution#arcane#arcane s2#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#z's [un]original bakwaas
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How the heck do people make themselves approachable irl and online I feel like people see me as a concrete wall with some graffiti on it that is a circle that says autistic inside of it
#like yes I do have a neutral face and I have no idea how to use emojis so Idk#or small talk! what the fuck is that#but some people are so turned off by how I appear externally that they don't really bother to get to know me#and when you get to know me I am actually very enthusiastic and smiley and talkative#but I am just very very very shy so it takes time to get to know me you know#but pls if you have any tips and tricks on how to be more approachable then pls tell me I would like to know#like plsss#pls I hope none of you think I'm rude or something I'm just clueless#actually autistic#autistic#neurodivergent#actually neurodivergent#and of course it's okay to be neutral all the time and not talkative or stuff it's just a me problem because I would like for people to get#to know me how I actually am you know??????#pls#I'm sorry
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making a list of my favorite quote/ones that stuck with me from each season 1 episode because i feel like it
(i'm starting this after episode 4 but it will be a WHILE before i post it)
episode 1: "bones are a lie peddled by Big Milk" - alice
i love this one because it's a great introduction to alice i think. also it radiates spiral so i hope we get avatar alice not dead alice (isnt there a podcast called alice isnt dead?)
episode 2: "If I wanted to clear the canvas, I would have used turpentine." - statement
this one was just fucking powerful and caught me so off guard like 😶
episode 3: "What would I do without her?" - statement
the norris statement <3 it feels like martin asking what he would do without jon which makes mag200 a lot sadder and i love them
episode 4: "Perhaps you shall prove a stronger will than I, and will yet find it within yourself to destroy this hungry thing of wood and cat-gut." - statement
augustus sighting #1 and we immediately get jonah magnus expressing that it may be possible for gwen bouchard unknown family member to overcome the eye's hunger spooky violin
episode 5: "Voyeur needs to be seen to be believed." - statement
i feel like this one is pretty reflective of how the seasons gonna go? like if you explain the events of tma (mag200 specifically) no one's gonna believe you, it must be seen to be believed!! and also seen!! like the eye!!!
episode 6: "Not sca- This isn’t some poxy blood test, some little pinprick, this is hundreds, thousands of razor sharp points pushing into your flesh." - needles
i love needles so much and i thought this was really funny because it was like "you dont find me scary!! what the fuck!!!" just kind of toddler michael energy
episode 7: "It’s not like we’re wrestling with tape recorders and manila folders." - celia
STOP IT. celia you can't say that you just cannot!!!!!! you Know™ too much maam i cant with you
episode 8: "Pleasure to meet you both. I’m Gerry!"
RAGHHHHH OH MY GOD GERRY!!!! i love him so much and idk how to handle him being alive in the tmagp universe!! gertrude too but idk we got so much of her in tma and not nearly enough of gerry
episode 9: "And honestly, it’s kind of compelling by this point." - sam
they got him 😔😔 the horrors got sam 😔😔 also i found this to be an interesting contrast to jon's heavy resistance in season 1 like he was being compelled but he wasn't going to let anyone know that vs sam "its kinda compelling to trauma dump on this paperwork :]" how is he somehow even more victim material
episode 10: "Gosh you’re sexy, here’s a twenty for your trouble.” - alice
does this count as a quote if shes also quoting what she thinks sam should say? idk anyway i love her i would say that to her if given the chance and it was very silly. i will not be addressing bonzo i am scared.
episode 11: "...Thank you, Alice" - gwen
dyhard dyhard dyhard dyhard dyhard. okay also, the way she CRUMBLED at the idea of anyone doing anything nice for her please someone give her a hug and let it be ME. this series is tossing me back and forth between sam & alice (what is their ship name) and dyhard but this put me back to dyhard
episode 12: "You know it's rude to have absolutely no game?" - alice
she's so fucking funny i need her to be okay so badly!!!! i don't think even tim made me laugh as much as she makes me chuckle and this one really got me. it's hard to write such a comedic character in a podcast since you only have the voice but they really nailed it i adore her
episode 13: "Is it my fault?" - gwen
each of these episodes just reveal a little bit more about how loving and soft gwen is and idk i love her so unbelievably much so seeing that she felt guilt about the bonzo stuff just made her so much more real :(
episode 14: "Christ, they’re in the walls…" - statement
theyre in the walls!!! theyre in the goddamn walls!!!!! anyway that got me because i realized the hole before the statement said it. made more sad than scared tbh
episode 15: "Babies are cool!" - alice this entire interaction between her and sam & celia was so awkward, she is so obvious and i love her anyway
episode 16: "It’s not like I was holding doors open for Mr Bonzo or anything." - gwen my wife is so so so stupid but i adore her AND this gives room for character development. i wish she did not do that though. i love when characters are flawed and have depth but i struggled to get past THIS flaw of hers
episode 17: "Thanks, I guess. Not exactly the same, though, is it?" - celia shes talking TO JON IN THE COMPUTER. SHE KNOWS. i lost my damn mind i love her i love her. get the gay people out of the puter please queen
episode 18: "Why would I need to talk to you? Your work is satisfactory. Unless you have a work-related issue I could assist you with?" - lena solidified my opinion that lena is the best boss to ever have, i adore her and i would want to work for her if she wasn't the boss of Creepy Establishment #1
episode 19: "You’re going to throw it in the fishtank, aren’t you?" - alice colin's behavior is like really worrying BUT i'm glad he's back. i was not convinced he was still alive
episode 20: "I suppose it’s too late for remorse, isn’t it? And why should I be sorry? This is what I deserve!" - ink5oul/statement they reminded me of jon a lot, like especially his season 3/4 transformation when he doesn't quite know everything but he knows he isn't who he was in season 1 anymore, i hope we see more of their life and they can be helped :(
episode 21: [Tape Recorder Bites Ink5oul] - audio description i know it's not technically a quote but this is just so fucking funny. why does it have teeth. what does this mean for the lore. holy shit.
episode 22: "Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood" - celia. knawing at the walls of my enclosure i am so not okay. i'm not okay. wtf. wtf. wtf. they're real. wtf.
episode 23: "I had a favorite mug. It said “love you, bitch” and had a picture of a drunk dog on it." - alice. okay i just love this entire interaction because gwen got to open up a little bit and my dyhard heart is so full
episode 24: "I am told that children like me, and I’ve always held the opinion that the world would be a better place if everyone just thought more." - basira. once again this whole interaction was so fun but like idk i loved hearing basira somewhat happy and in a safe place :] my wife <3
episode 25: " I am trying to help, to save us from this goddamned fucking nightmare machine!" - colin. MAN I REALLY WAS ROOTING FOR YOU!!! I WAS SO CONFIDENT YOU WEREN'T GONNA DIE!!!! it's over
episode 26: "I was worrying for a moment that you were Magnussing." - alice. MAGNUSSING BEING CANON MADE ME SAY IT EVEN MORE I'VE SAID IT LIKE TWICE ALREADY
episode 27: "You didn’t tell me the room was labelled, “Archivist.”" - celia. oooooh somebody's got TRAUMAAAAA LMAO
episode 28: "So you’re telling me you know nothing about an OIAR external contract being found with the bodies of two tattooed thugs who met rather grisly ends?" - TREVOR HERBERT???? anyway. ink5oul mention!!!!! i hope they stop killing people it's really rude
episode 29: "Alice, er… we’ve got to talk. It’s important." - teddy. i knew it was over for him but i didn't think it was gonna be THIS bad??? bye babe i guess??? 😭
episode 30: how do i even pick. the whole fucking episode. i can't. i am in a state of shock. i need to lay down for 30 years.
#honorable mentions:#“canaries should stay above ground” because holy shit (1)#“i don’t scare so easy these days” because oh my god its our celia (7)#“i like them”/“of course you do” because weeping weeping weeping (8)#“oh no not again! oh the horrors! nooooo” that one was just really funny and not exactly part of the episode (9)#“can he read?” (10) bc it enforces the gwen/jon parallels (“you dont sound?? russian??”)#“the deep will care for his bones” (11) it creeped me out and i loved it#“the cover had this awful comic sans title 'mr. bonzo's on his way'” (12) comic sans font was so funny it almost made it not horrific#“I have a baby. Jack. He’s just over a year old now.” (13) like BARNABAS. i know him.#“The only drama is the dilemma of how I could possibly get by without you all to myself!” (14) alice.... alice....#“Oh no! Who keeps taking Georgie’s face?!” (18) SHE'S BACKKKKKKK#''I swear if I hear one more word about Trevor-bloody-Herbert MP I am going to blow up Parliament.'' (27) because WHAT LMAO??? WHATTT#''when I first awoke I knew nothing nothing but the dream of things that sliced my who from me with claws like scalpels'' (30) i cried#''They’re gone Alice. They’re gone.'' (30) tweaking#''What happens now? You push me? Stab me? Or do I need to jump in myself? Come on what’s stopping you?'' (30)#can i just put the whole episode in honorable mentions too atp.#''We are the hilltop. It is me and I am it and we are. We are…'' (30)#''Yeah sure. Sorry to bother you. Goodbye Alice.'' (30)#okay i'm done#i can't i .. i ..#the magnus protocol#tmagp#magnus protocol#tmagp spoilers#tmagp season 1#the magnus pod
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Here's part two of drawing my family pictures as the Bad Batch because I can and you can't stop me
#i can tell you right now that drawing their armor was a fucking pain in the ass#and the l e g s jesus fucking christ#why do i have to care about anatomy#don't ask where crosshair and wrecker's legs are btw i wouldn't know#fun fact the original picture is from our summer vacation to Italy back in 2018#tech is me in this picture actually real and true#another fun fact#omega's eyebrows were blonde until the very last minute because i felt like they looked kinda odd#and she does actually have dark eyebrows in the show so--#i don't know if they look any better now but ehh good enough#hunter looks so wrong for some reason but i can't fix him i'm sorry#also yes they're all in their blacks because a) i couldn't be bothered to draw all the armor again and b) they deserve the comfort#i might do proper shadings if i find the motivation for this but until then this is what you're getting#the bad batch#bad batch#tbb#the bad batch fanart#bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#hunter#omega#crosshair#wrecker#echo#tech#the clone wars#star wars#star wars fanart#art#my art
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"Colton and Akiyama have a long and rich history, having worked together for Arasaka since their early twenties— Colton as director of the SERPENT projects and Head of Special Programs, and Akiyama as recruiter and quality control manager across all of the corporation's Night City facilities. The two disliked each other from the start and from an outsider's perspective only rarely saw eye to eye; but if anything their rivalry was a challenge, a way to keep each other sharp, and one of the only ways they could have some fun in the megacorporation's grasp. Years later, the two reunite at Club Bodytalk following the incident in spaceship Elysium and the fall of Cobra Cybernetics. Surrounded by the victims of the projects they once ran, their heads are forcibly turned into the direction of their past mistakes— their guilt connects them and it forges a bond of understanding they can't get with anyone else, and while they cannot erase their past they can ensure that no one else ever has to go through any of that again." ↳ andy belongs to @mojaves, template here [x]
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#cp2077#edit:kaida#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#sorry i'm bouncing around between five billion projects and interests right now so i go where the waves take me LMAO#the pictures aren't entirely accurate. kaida is also very good at pressing andy into a wall and making him moan like a girl#it's also funny that they're both part of the rest of the club bodytalk polycule but in VASTLY different directions#well. i'm saying that right now but that's not true. i'm lying sorry#because kaida also loves diving in bed with seb and hanan who are both also from xyr time at special programs#and andy has another boyfriend. beckett. who was a test subject at special programs many years ago#AND andy also kisses vitali from time to time. who used to bother him with a thousand and one emails back at arasaka on weekly basis#so basically if you've been an arasaka employee in any way in your life you're messy. is what i'm implying here#either way the dynamics between kaida and andy specifically make me so fucking insane they're so good. so so good#when they officially reunited at the club kaida punched andy on the nose threatened to kill him and then fucked him#while carving a heart on his chest with a knife no less. and then they both pretended nothing had happened for a good few months#while also hatefucking at any and every given opportunity. because. you guessed it. THEY'RE MESSY#i could go deeper [haha] into the themes and their arasaka crimes but i think it's funnier to explain all of this to you. it's funny#they used to get into car crashes with each other to get some time off from work
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Something about dark nova yakumo makes me want to bully him. Every time I see him I want to shove him in a locker or pour mop water on his head. I'm not sure why; I don't feel that strongly about his other alts but for some reason just thinking of him in a school setting turns me into a generic high school bully.
you're so right nonsy i could be standing under my angelic umbrella with the utmost compassion and empathy for the rough life of a high schooler but if yakumo walks by in his stupid oversized untucked shirt i'm gon na
#knock his books over#yank his hair#pull his sweater over his head#grab his glasses and throw them down the hallway#kick him behind his knees#trip him in his silly little almost-platform shoes#when dark nova yaku first showed up i was thoroughly unimpressed with his look#i was summoning for him while simultaneously thinking [why am i even bothering. what am i doing. i don't even like *gestures to all of it*]#then i got him. and he did 10k damage or smth stupid like that.#i threw my hands up in defeat#he's OVERPOWERED. FANTASTIC. THE NERD DROWNING IN HIS CLOTHES HITS SO HARD THAT I *NEED* HIM ON MY TEAM#*grumbles the entire time i'm throwing intimacy gifts at him*#for real tho are all the uniforms at sorc trials this badly fitting? i like to imagine when yaku showed up as a ~special~ student#the admin were all SORRY! you're joining at a weird time so we can't order a uniform for you but we DO have some X-LaRGE spares!!!#his pants fit though so idk how that works. he just got whatever was left in the Lost and Found bin#i mEan cOME ON! LOOK AT THAT POSTURE! crnchyh like a n overcooked shrimp. gonna shred him#nu carnival yakumo#feesh answer
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Hi, I’m new in this tag kinda and new to meta-writing overall, but not only is the August brain rot really strong but one particular part of his entire character has been on my mind for a whole weekend. Please take this as mostly an offering of very spilled thoughts cause I couldn't keep them to myself anymore, LMAO. Particularly the thing that's on my brain is his guilt
I would also like to make note of and thank @ lizardthelizard And her glorious set of tags here for setting off my spiral tonight and also when she first sent them because my goodness this is truly an eye-opener. Thank you, buddy 💖
Gosh though, August’s guilt and self-criticism of himself and his actions is something that really fascinates me personally, and just thinking of it being the cause of what turns him back to wood is both mind-blowing but it just makes so much sense. He may be real because of magic but who’s to say it’s just the magical conditions that are holding him back and not the high as heck expectations that he feels were set for him and he set up for himself.
When it feels like you can't mess up sometimes it can feel like you're stuck in place Or that your screw ups means you can't change, that you're not good, that maybe you don't deserve to be considered good and that your various flaws are all that others would see you FOR!!
Maybe it's different to anxiety but idk it’s what caught my attention about him even more than what his character already offered up in s1!
He was given this like
Idea that he needs to be "Brave" and "Truthful" and "Selfless" all the time or else he cannot be human
Does it work like that? no, there's no human on EARTH that's all three of those things all the time, we've all had moments of weakness and gave in
But what does he know? Most of his life he spent on his own and as a puppet, he was expected to understand the ways of being a human and GOODNESS knows how short a time he was with his dad before he was THRUST into a world and forced once again to stand on his own two feet and expected to just, you know, know how to act once again
He's followed by expectations that he finds himself struggling to meet because he doesn't know what the limit is or how to meet them, and sometimes if not all of the times the temptations are just better and easier
And it's expected!!!
He stepped into TLWM as a child with no idea of what he’s getting into with no prior knowledge, no adult, no nothing.
But omg, he drags himself down so much about it because he can’t meet those expectations the way he would want to and because of that because literally who did he have to tell him that it's all okay? That you can make mistakes and move on from them? That you can make up for your mistakes and forgive yourself for them?
Did he have anyone at all? Cause The show sure didn't show him having anyone
We see one woman in Thailand but even after he discovers he's turning into wood she's no longer around, so like she's probably about as fleeting of a relationship as anything else
Imagine going 28 years at first ignoring all your problems and then the horror and thoughts that you’re not good enough catch up to you one morning and the more you see yourself a failure, the more you sink into that spiral the harder it feels to breathe.
#ouat#august booth#august meta#SORRY LIBBY I DIDN'T WANT TO BOTHER YOU WITH A TAG SO IT'S EMPTY LIKE THAT FOR NOW#BUT KNOW I'M SCREAMING MY APPRECIATION AT YOUUUU RN!! <33333#Anyway terribly sorry for all this guys JBFKTHLRJCTRLK I've fallen deep into this hole#and I don't plan on getting out anytime soon#August is a fascinating character to me#and I'm in a constant state of rotating him in my head always and forever#He's so messy he's so pathetic but he also tries no matter how great or little#He wants to be human but god it's hard to be that when you don't even know what it means to be one#I don't anything like this ever so ahahhaaha I hope this stuff makes sense!!#See you around#Maybe LOL#sol talks
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#I'm sorry I'm behind on asks I feel like it never fucking ends#can't talk to family about it. they worry too much. cant talk to friends about it. they just start giving unwarranted (well meaning) advice#and plus they basically live with me atp with how often they're over helping me fuck do I do?? bother them more??#dude it's embaressing even if it's not chronic shit it's just unlucky shit like how u gonna have an allergic reaction & then seizure same d#idk about therapy therapists scare me. it's not a therapy issue though I'm just tired and in pain all the fucking time#one more person says “same omg” or “well have you tried-” i will start cutting peoples throat and eating their livers#you do NOT know what it's like having to write your own will before 30 like this shit aint right shit aint fair#makes me petty and shit too people who are healthy like can you just fucking suffer why do you get that freedom but not me#it just never ends#like I really fucking hate it when people say “oh you have so much to live for” because no I don't#Not so sound like a right winger gosh dang god fearer but like deadass people focus so heavily on “mental health!!” they don't#realize even if you feel better and get therapy or shit that's not gonna be realistically helpful for anything physical going on in sm#it's a cycle even if you manage 1 thing - the medications cause a 2nd thing#and that's alongside all the OTHER things you take medications for which cause all those other things#it's like multiplying and makes your body slowly deplete but like never quite die. like I know realistically I can just die anyday#and yeah it is getting worse but it's no different because it's not about that#when you're sick it's not just “OMG DYING!!!” it's like. everything else in your life dies.#you can't cook for yourself. you can't clean. you can't move. you can't hang out with people anymore. you can barely work LMFAO.#I'm REALLY close to quitting it's not even funny lmao. cant put clothes on without struggling.#do people not know it's. physically impossible. to even eat sometimes. just vomit it all up or seize.#yeah it does make me petty#rant
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